How can I love you and hate you so much the same time? Why do you give me so much fake happiness to hide the real sorrow? When the happiness wears off you make that sorrow go so deep in me it almost breaks me.
You used to work for me, you once were on my side. Now I’m your slave! When I’m with you I get excited. But in then you even take that from me and leave me lost, So I leave you. But then i miss you and want you back. I hate you so much, but I hate me more. I hate that I love you so much!
Where’s the old You? Where’s the old me? We once were a great couple. Remember the good times? You once were fun, you bought me out of my shell remember that? You gave me confidence and now you have taken that from me also.
You used to give me so much now I give you so much and all you do is take. You have used me all up and drained me, now all that I am is a empty shell. A slave, a zombie, a criminal, I’m not me you have stolen my freedom. You stole me from myself and I didn’t even see it happening.
But I will return to myself one-day. But I’ll be better, I will be stronger, smarter. I will have you to thank that I do know. You did open my eyes, you showed me all the different sides to everything. I once was a sheep, I was blind but now I see.
You showed me who is real, you revealed my true friends, you exposed the truth about how my own family feel about me. You opened my eyes to how alone I really am. How sad it is that I only have a hand full of people I can turn to, to trust.
And then there is you… how can you help me but ruin me at the same time? Take me so high then crash me down! Show me the truth but lie in return. Make me so happy and depressed at the same time.
How can I love you and hate you so much at the same time?
Written by Karn Reefman (me)