Q: i think i accidentally hooked myself on meth?
i really doubt r/meth is the place to be asking for advice but i bought like 20 pressed adderall without really thinking twice.. never done meth before, it’s now the third day i haven’t slept i’ve barely eaten but i look good as fuck somehow, is that the meth?? i also fr thought someone was following me home tonight at like 3am wtf do i do? i don’t necessarily feel high but im extremely stimulated my jaw is clenched, cant eat shit, but i don’t feel the amazing euphoria people describe with meth, is this just because i have low amounts of it in the adderall? pls help i don’t wanna ruin my life
This is my reply to that Reddit post, at 6am Monday, after smoking my morning blasts.
A: It could be Adderall but if you bought on street, it’s probably just meth and you are describing a typical first use experience many people have. You don’t feel like you expected to,. No euphoria that you heard about, and you might not think it’s anything at all, not realizing you accomplished so many things today that might have been a struggle yesterday indecision. Your confidence is subtle but good . All of that is your version of meth euphoria combined with Your decisions seem all correct You don’t notice the absence of doubt and the ability to not worry about it, take more and then at 4am on day 2, it hits you and you ask the questions. On reddit as worry creeps in. Then you have to decide if you want the worry to vanish by taking more, or deal with the what have 1 done for the next day feeling like shit because you still can’t sleep
After a long extended sleep in, time will pass where your brain tries to convince you the whole experience wasn’t that bad, and maybe you should do it again, because you have some left you don’t want to waste. But no., yes . No…maybe.. No..but you put them in a drawer and the yes no debate starts to get louder and distracting and you give in Repeat forever, and then you upgrade to the debate do you buy more? Repeat. Even if you give it up with willpower, you’ll think about it when your daing things that were easier on meth and if the opportunity arrives to have some, the loop begins again. I’m eager to see if others think I’m exaggerating this. I’m on year 10 and the way I avoided the mental debate was to be a daily user.